1. Update

I'm not able to look strait anymore, think strait anymore or do anything strait anymore.

This job is insane. I have deep respect for the EMT/Paramedic profession. You must be a total nutcase to do that kind of job for that money.

I was in the middle of a robbery, a shooting, and some severe lung patients tonight. I "rescued" total drug addicts and heart breaking "cases" like the man who was deaf, blind and unable to speak.

I went to homes, you would never dream of existing. People living worse than animals abandoned.

I heard things behind my back.... the paramedics think that I'm "sweet" or something. I'm getting compliments. I'm feeling competent, but fresh. I admire the paramedics.

We had to go from a dead sleep to racing down the streets of LA with lights and sirens within 1 min of waking up.

I'm really exhausted now...

I got my first 800.- dollars today. The government takes 200.- of that though. Hey, I earned my first "hard worked for" and official money here in the states. Besides the money I've earned on "the watcher" in Chicago two years ago.

I can pay my rent now without having to ask anybody for the money for it. It feels great.

got to go to sleep now.

olli